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Feb 10, 2020

Ozbilgen’s Suicide Notes Released — One to Ex-Girlfriend, One to Parents

Photo Courtesy: John Oz Facebook

The suspect named in the murder of 25-year-old Freehold woman Stephanie Parze left two suicide notes written to family members and a redacted name, presumably an ex-girlfriend he was involved with before Parze. In the notes originally released by NJ101.5, John Ozbilgen, whom Monmouth County Prosecutor Christopher J. Gramiccioni named as the responsible party in the death of Parze, leaves many questions unanswered as to what was done to Parze the night of Oct. 30.

Ozbilgen claims his innocence of all wrongdoings pertaining to the child pornography charges yet warns his parents that “most of the stuff you will hear is true” and that “he can’t do life in prison.”

In a note presumed to be addressed to an ex-girlfriend, Ozbilgen professes his love to her, and asks her to “help my parents with my funeral.”

After being held on the child pornography charges early on in the investigation of Parze’s disappearance, Ozbilgen was found dead in his home from an apparent suicide on Nov. 22. Prior to the Parze investigation, Ozbilgen had two domestic violence charges against him stemming from an assault against an ex-girlfriend in June 2019, as well as a September 2019 charge which was possibly assault against Parze.

The Asbury Park Press released a statement from a former girlfriend of Ozbilgen that said based on behavior he had shown toward her during their time together, she believed he strangled and murdered Parze. She also mentioned that during a conversation after Parze’s disappearance, he had shown no concern of her whereabouts.

The Jan. 27 press conference held by Gramiccioni and the MCPO stated that while the responsibility “belongs to John Ozbilgen, and John Ozbilgen alone,” the manner and cause of Parze’s death was still being investigated.

Parze’s body was found on Jan. 26 by two teenagers walking to work in Old Bridge. It was quickly determined that the body was that of the missing 25-year-old.

Ozbilgen’s parents still maintain his innocence and say the suicide notes do not determine his guilt. Meanwhile, the Parze family is continuing with plans to set up a domestic violence and missing persons foundation in their daughter’s name.


Ozbilgen suicide note redacted by MCPO

Note redacted by MCPO

The notes read as transcribed below:

“Dear Mom, Dad, Sal, Sammy:
Sorry about all this crazyness (sic), I’ve been miserable for so long now, I had enough. Thanks for everything, I can’t do life in prison. Most of the stuff you will hear is true, exept (sic) the child porn, I would never do that. Use the pics with me and [redacted] for the funeral, that was the only time in my life where I was truly happy. I want [redacted] to help plan everything with you, tell her I’m sorry and I love her. She was so good too (sic) me, we had a amazing life. I f—ed it up, she only did good for me! I dug myself in a deep hole, this is the only choice. I love you guys.”

“Dear [redacted] & Bentley:
I love you so much little lady. I miss you so much. I don’t know what I was thinking when I f—ked our relationship up. You were the best thing that happened too (sic) me. I tried to move on many times, I will never feel for another lady the way I feel for you. Recently I tried to reach out to you, you got a restraining order? Why? At that moment I felt like my entire world ended. I really needed you in a huge way. Look @ the mess I created, lol. Don’t believe everything in the news. I hope your (sic) doing well & I hope you have amazing life, you deserve it. Not a day goes by where I don’t think about you and Ben. The girl in the news with me was such a piece of s—, she hurt me over and over, when I was already @ my lowest, she was a horrible person. Please help my parents with my funeral, your (sic) the only person I have ever loved. Sorry for everything, I wish I could go back in time & correct my mistakes, but I can’t.”